dancing

Pierre Dulaine: Do you love to dance?
Caitlin: Yeah
Pierre Dulaine: Then you're meant to dance.

[from Take the Lead]

does that work for my course?

dispersion aura

against the flow
and into a crowd
like the red sea
they parted for me
effortless feat

falling leaf

(ee cummings)


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one
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somewhere i have never travelled

(ee cummings)

somewhere i have never travelled,gladly beyond
any experience,your eyes have their silence:
in your most frail gesture are things which enclose me,
or which i cannot touch because they are too near

your slightest look easily will unclose me
though i have closed myself as fingers,
you open always petal by petal myself as Spring opens
(touching skilfully,mysteriously) her first rose

or if your wish be to close me,i and
my life will shut very beautifully, suddenly,
as when the heart of this flower imagines
the snow carefully everywhere descending;

nothing which we are to perceive in this world equals
the power of your intense fragility: whose texture
compels me with the color of its countries,
rendering death and forever with each breathing

(i do not know what it is about you that closes
and opens; only something in me understands
the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses)
nobody,not even the rain, has such small hands

if i love You

(ee cummings)

if i love You
(thickness means
worlds inhabited by roamingly
stern bright faeries

if you love
me) distance is mind carefully
luminous with innumerable gnomes
Of complete dream

if we love each (shyly)
other, what clouds do or Silently
Flowers resembles beauty
less than our breathing

bloodied hands

we clashed swords of demands
and hurled hurtful words
too stubborn to back down,
we fought 'til all was lost
in this battlefield of
opposing wills
but then you fell
and i cried.

You've Got to Hide Your Love Away

Here I stand head in hand
Turn my face to the wall
If she's gone I can't go on
Feelin' two-foot small

Everywhere people stare
Each and every day
I can see them laugh at me
And I hear them say

Hey you've got to hide your love away
Hey you've got to hide your love away

How can I even try
I can never win
Hearing them, seeing them
In the state I'm in

How could she say to me
Love will find a way
Gather round all you clowns
Let me hear you say

Hey you've got to hide your love away
Hey you've got to hide your love away

[The Beatles]

submission

Submission is a love word.

It means I choose to let you love me.
(The letting part is submission.)

[from Building a High Trust Culture]

tough.

affirmation and acceptance

James Blunt: You're beautiful!
me: Thank you!

demigod?

1. can lead me spiritually and in our relationship (non-negotiable)
2. faithful (also non-negotiable)
3. gifted
4. a sheep and a shepherd
5. intellectually equal or superior

*** for revision in case the above mentioned is still not human...

i lost myself.

all the more reason to attend the discovery meeting and find what you seek.

eyes shut

if i close my eyes
will it hide the pain
that resonates within
and emanates
from every fiber
of my being?

I Walk the Line

I keep a close watch on this heart of mine
I keep my eyes wide open all the time.
I keep the ends out for the tie that binds
Because you're mine, I walk the line

I find it very, very easy to be true
I find myself alone when each day is through
Yes, I'll admit that I'm a fool for you
Because you're mine, I walk the line

As sure as night is dark and day is light
I keep you on my mind both day and night
And happiness I've known proves that it's right
Because you're mine, I walk the line

You've got a way to keep me on your side
You give me cause for love that I can't hide
For you I know I'd even try to turn the tide
Because you're mine, I walk the line

I keep a close watch on this heart of mine
I keep my eyes wide open all the time.
I keep the ends out for the tie that binds
Because you're mine, I walk the line

[Live]

praises

i prayed that i may have friends in my classes and the Lord faithfully answered. i praise Him for joan, benj, karl, jen, gevieve, and jonathan. the last one is a new friend, not the old one. i finally have someone to have lunch with on tuesdays and fridays. yey!

boolean

I cannot love nor write.

~ Shakespeare, Shakespeare in Love

I Walk the Line

I keep a close watch on this heart of mine
I keep my eyes wide open all the time.
I keep the ends out for the tie that binds
Because you're mine, I walk the line

I find it very, very easy to be true
I find myself alone when each day is through
Yes, I'll admit that I'm a fool for you
Because you're mine, I walk the line

As sure as night is dark and day is light
I keep you on my mind both day and night
And happiness I've known proves that it's right
Because you're mine, I walk the line

You've got a way to keep me on your side
You give me cause for love that I can't hide
For you I know I'd even try to turn the tide
Because you're mine, I walk the line

I keep a close watch on this heart of mine
I keep my eyes wide open all the time.
I keep the ends out for the tie that binds
Because you're mine, I walk the line

[Live]

boolean

I cannot love nor write.

~ Shakespeare, Shakespeare in Love

wednesday's lecture

Love is a many-splendored thing, or so they say. Many stories present such entangled love relations that it sickens anyone who tries to understand it. If one would study such entanglings (though one couldn't think of a reason why one would want to), a person can be in any of the 7 possible states (assuming omniscience of all concerned):

1. Happy: if A loves B and only B, and B loves A and only A, then both A and B are happy.
2. Loveless: if A loves no one, then A is loveless.
3. Martyr: if A loves B and only B, and B loves A and one or more others, then A is a martyr.
4. Philanderer: if A loves B and is loved back by B, and A also loves one or more others, then A is a philanderer.
5. Broken-hearted: if A loves B, and B is happy, or a philanderer, or a martyr or a narcissist, then A is broken-hearted.
6. Hoping: if A loves B, and B is not loved back by the others B loves, and B does not love A, then A is hoping.
7. Narcissist: if A loves oneself, then A is a narcissist.

Precedence is decreasing from top to bottom. This means that a person cannot be in more than one state.

[2628 - Romeo and Juliet Go to the Creek Beside Melrose]

what do these have in common?

they're stacks.

assume nothing.

not assume that there is nothing.
but make no assumptions whatsoever.

crushable...

disposable!

blindness

Isaiah 43:18-19 (New American Standard Bible)

Do not call to mind the former things,
Or ponder things of the past.
"Behold, I will do something new,
Now it will spring forth;
Will you not be aware of it?
I will even make a roadway in the wilderness,
Rivers in the desert.

like that

Since this book is neither esoteric nor technical, and since it is written in the language of worship with no pretension to elegant literary style, perhaps some persons may be drawn to read it.

~ A. W. Tozer, The Knowledge of the Holy

i'd like to learn to write like that...

distant spring

i didn't think people would notice last night
didn't realize my smile was way too wide
i heard your voice and i knew
this winter would come to an end