thoughts

are you willing to go to another country for your job?

are you willing to go o another country for God?

wishlist

1. trench coat
2. digicam with super cool lens
3. at least 1gb ram
4. macbook
5. dance lessons
   
6. a set of knives
7. lots of free time
8. a roommate or three
9. a dog
10. a car or two or more

some things cannot be bought, others will have to wait. but i now have a good motivation to save.

caffeine addicts anonymous

this is my third day without any caffeinated drink due to two consecutive asthma attacks.

drinking coffee would kill me (it would worsen my asthma) and not drinking coffee is killing me (caffeine withdrawal, dude).

i am in so much pain. i feel like puking. my head hurts. i can't sleep but i'm always sleepy.

i hate this.

***

multiple indirection
leads me in the wrong direction

i will

fail you, frustrate you,
and disappoint you.
if not today, tomorrow.

realize this.

and if i already did,
my apologies.

unfinished

like my unpacking,
my previous project,
my training exercise,
my list of things to do
and things to buy,
but so is this night.

that means i have time
to come closer to
accomplishing my goals,
or to come closer
to the Father's throne
to surrender my plans,
or both.

forgettable

you smile, i smile
no offense but
at the back of my mind,
i'm still trying to fetch your name

staple food: pizza

i had pizza, chicken, and mojos for dinner with my closest friends last night. then i had pizza and mudpie sundae for brunch with my brothers. and now i'm having last night's leftover pizza for dinner because he cancelled at the last minute. what's the use of having time on your hands when you can't function?

slept all day

i must have been really tired from working all day yesterday and going shopping after. i probably wouldn't have gotten up in the morning if my brothers didn't summon me from my bed. i also feel sick. i think i have a dry throat and a fever. perhaps i'm also in my escapist mode with work from my old job's deliverables piling up and my starting with my new one tomorrow. i still lack some of the required documents. i don't know what the penalty would be... i'm not excited or anything. i dread change.