how long?

how long will she wait for you?
how long will she [pray] for you?

~ coldplay, in my place

junei: game!

Winter Light

It's always in the back of your mind
When everything is dark, still something shines
One chilly afternoon, you drew the blind

The earth was frozen
Ice upon the water
All at once you saw her
There in the Winter Light

Then the light came bouncin' up, from stony ground
And deep within the earth you heard the sound
Breakin' like a rock you grew profound

The earth was frozen
Ice upon the water
All at once you saw her
There in the Winter Light
There in the Winter Light
There in the Winter Light
Making everything look beautiful

Light, a child with his own fantasmagoria
Light that spills from billions of excited atoms
Light that lingers in a quiet room
Reveal for me shine for me
There in the Winter Light
Shine for me, reveal for me
There in the Winter Light
There in the Winter Light

[Tim Finn}

distant spring

i didn't think people would notice last night
didn't realize my smile was way too wide
i heard your voice and i knew
this winter would come to an end

dominic

kamatngon ko nga sa imo gihapon ko mudagan kung kinahanglan naku magpahungaw...

innovate

picklocks and paperclips
a story so challenging
it inspired me
to unclog
one roommie's
mechanical pencil

love life!

i am teary-eyed
but not with grief
it's been so long since
i last served in this way
not witholding anything
but offering everything
for His glory
contagious with passion
infectious with joy
pardon the words
but i can't help it
experiencing the reality
of His perfect love
casts away anxiety and fear
and empowers me to move
exhausted, i come
to Him for strength
even temper is now in check
as i try to communicate
a love of life and
a life of love.

pretend

the cover of darkness
failed to hide me from your sight
our eyes locked
as we both waited for the other
to make the first move
i was tired of caring whether
we pretended to be friends
or to be strangers this time
and was too stubborn to find out
you waved so i waved back
and faked a smile
then went on my way
thankful for each step
that no longer lead to you.

unlovely

if i feel unloved
and unlovely
you need only to
read to me
psalm one hundred
and three
because His love
overwhelms me

bottled tears

i watched as
my bottled emotions
spilled in the form
of tears
each drop of which
You keep

pockets

my soul weeps
for something that will pass away
but i'd rather have it replaced
without having to demand it
from those "responsible"
were my pockets not close to empty
this day wouldn't be as dreary.

a time for everything

serving the Lord has its joys. but repeatedly ruined plans are not part of them. leadership has its cost. but this does not mean sacrificing your studies. rather, it requires excellence in your ministry primarily as a student (not as a Christian dormer). it doesn't serve you well to exhaust your energy worrying and complaining. remember to rest. it is vital for your sanity. do not attempt to do the impossible without the blessing of the God of the impossible. that would be suicide. do not get lost in activity that you forget Him. it doesn't glorify His name when you no longer acknowledge that it is the Lord's grace that enables. your strength will fail you. He never will. trust and obey. you are but an instrument in the advancement of His kingdom. you won't serve your purpose if your weariness prevents you from being of use. it's late, janna. get some sleep.

pierced heart

forgiveness and love
lessons hard-earned
after tantrums thrown
too many of which
sprung from this:
what about me?
but the cross tells me
i am a hypocrite
if i call Him Lord
and not do what He says
amazing love
pierced this heardened heart
and joy was made complete

inflexible

i had been tired
and stretched
beyond endurance
but for some weird reason
i'm still here

inflexible

i had been tired
and stretched
beyond endurance
but for some weird reason
i'm still here