fossils

there are things we unearth
feelings that don't fade
buried beneath what is,
what was remains the same

memories locked away
from reality's tears
untainted by bitterness
and jealousy

a stranger in dreams
a performer on stage
always beyond reach
may our paths never meet.

stillness

i find it unsettling
to be just sitting in front
of a computer screen
when people out there
are chasing their dreams.

my passion is my frustration.

i do love what i do but
i want to do what i love, too.

rainbows

each one is unique
and can't be shared
unless you take a pic
sad, isn't it?

pleasure and pain

there's more to life than these.

but the contrast is beautiful.

going back

...to wondering...

why i am here?

because where i am reminds me of things.
like knowing i know nothing.
that the God of the universe
is also the God of the computer world.

because i constantly find myself lost
and incapable of even the simplest scripts.

because i constantly learn
of data structures and algorithms.
of humility and brokenness.
of who He is and what He can do
and has done to fix my mess.

because i have a God
who showed me His faithfulness.
and i could claim His promises.

because i can boast of nothing.
except that i know Him.

because He wipes each tear.
and heals my wounds.

because He placed me here.
not to be abandoned
but to experience more of Him
and give Him back all
the glory, honor and praise.

how to be a pessimist

1. listen to someone enumerate your faults
2. step into their shoes
3. believe you can't change
4. view life as a curse
5. cease hoping against hope

when you can't see where you're going, you won't get there. unless someone takes you by the hand and guides you. but will you let Him?

i need the reminder.

love not because of but in spite of.

water

one second it symbolizes tranquility
the next it threatens to drown you
only to entice you with death when it fails.

dirty and useless

that's not how i want to be
Lord, consecrate me please
and use me...

see no evil

chemistry talk

only one

only one love will never fail.


His.


mine will. his will. yours will.

space and time

spacing out
eats up time

yes, most of mine.

=p