vengeance

Never take your own revenge, beloved, but leave room for the wrath of God,
for it is written, "Vengeance is Mine, I will repay," says the Lord.
"But if your enemy is hungry, feed him, and if he is thirsty, give him a drink; for in so doing you will heap burning coals on his head."
Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

Romans 12:19-21 (New American Standard Bible)

this is quite a challenge when the world's biggest jerk turned you into the world's greatest fool. it's so tempting to pawn his head when i get back. but what scares me more is being vulnerable to his deception again.

when he apologized for toying with my feelings, i didn't realize just how guilty he was. all his talk of guarding my heart was just a pretense.

he turned me into the other girl. i didn't even have the slightest idea what was going on. they laughed behind my back while he pretended to be my friend. i wish i never gave in to his pathetic whims. i sacrificed so much for him only to find out he used me.

i used to think he's all that. but he doesn't even possess a heart. and let's not start pointing out all his faults. it would take us forever.

basically, he left me hanging in the air. then i came crashing to the ground.

this guy was supposed to be my brother in Christ. he should learn to fear the Lord.

i should learn to forgive him. he doesn't deserve it. but neither did i when Christ forgave me. even fictional vampires forgave each other for the deepest betrayal, dark creatures that they are. so much more is expected of me.