questions that they want to ask me...

• What are your plans after graduation?

magdisappear. joke. ok, half-meant... mag-aral ng culinary arts someday. beyond that, who knows?

• Why are you so strong? Why do you seem so mature?
  

the Lord is my strength. mature? the operational word is seem.

• Violet ba fave mong kulay?
  

di po. blue. color-coordinating freak lang ako. hehe.

• Ba't ang tahimik mo lagi?
  

i'm usually content with silence and just observing people. i need to be asked for me to open up.

• What if God called you to full-time work in the ministry?
  

trust and obey. di pa naman eh.

• Sinong gusto mong makasama habambuhay?

sikretong malupit. yung nasa panaginip ko.

• If you were to draw something for me, what would it be?
  

hindi si cloud strife kasi masakit. si aslan na lang. alam ko na yata yung isang tanong na sinagot ko na...

we held our sem ender for mcm tonight. it was surreal. i found myself trying to capture every detail. the questions were only part of our team-building activity. this is my last semester to have an ate and a kuya in the fellowship. and i will look back with smiles and tears.

kuya arvin was the reason i joined kalcf (and dcf). he has been an encouragement since my freshman years. the verses and pats on the back from him have always been helpful. he's one of those people who actually believed in me even when i didn't. i'll feel like an orphan without him.

junei and hannah were my first real friends in molave. we were practically roommates. we were inseparable for a time. we experienced things in the extreme. laughter, walkouts, tears. our porcupine moments abound.

i wrote this in my journal when junei left the core at the start of the sem...

if there are two things that the molave christian movement had taught me, these are: what it feels like to get left behind and God's faithfulness. sometimes they forget you when you're supposed to go to a camp, a party, or some other event together. at other times, they either graduate or God calls them to another ministry and you somehow feel abandoned. but then you remember the One who'll never leave you nor forsake you. and you find comfort in Psalm 55:22, which reads:

Cast your burden upon the Lord and He will sustain you;
He will never allow the righteous to be shaken.

i am about to experience the reality of the loneliness of leadership.