Romans 12:15

Rejoice with those who rejoice, and weep with those who weep.

i had a surprise visit from one of my roommies in the past yesterday. i woke up when she paged, but i hesitated in responding. i had to check my phone, which had been moody and silent since i dropped it days ago, before i figured out who it was. i texted her and took a record-breaking shower and all. then we had lunch at the shopping center. and i heard the details of her father's death and of her coming home to her grieving family. she shared her memories and her regrets. i couldn't find the words because i never experienced losing someone close to me in that way. all i did was listen. and when i couldn't hold the tears back much longer, i let them flow. her father was so proud of her graduating from up and becoming a mechanical engineer. the first one is also my dad's dream and i am scared of disappointing him once again if i get delayed by yet another sem. my department is still not offering one of the subjects i still need to take next semester. when will i ever get to share the gospel with him without my academic failures getting in the way?

i realized that my grief is so shallow as compared to those with loved ones who departed. i'm thankful with how the Lord has opened my eyes to see beyond myself. and even enabled me to minister to others. and reminded me of the urgency and importance of sharing His Word.

by the way, her father's last words were "Lord, forgive me."